新年咯！

New Year's Eve

It's 1.30am at the new year's eve...
I am suppose to bed right now since there is class tomorrow morning...
But thinking of this would be the last night I'd blogging before the end of the year....
i decided to stay a bit late to spit out what is in my mind....

I'm not really like new year for this year....
the word "new year" remind me about "aging"....
probably because it remind me that i still have a lot of things does not accomplished ...
and the time i have seem so limited...
Perhaps whoever watching this right now would have say:" come on, you are just 22, man !"
Well, time is slip through our finger...

I am started worry about my future...
all the uncertainty is in my head...
will i get a good job after graduated?
when would i meet with my another half?
when i can get myself a car?
when,why, how, what and where......
all the lingering doubts.....

Maybe i should just do my part and left the rest for the God to decide.

梦魇

回家都已经三个星期了...
现在才有休息的感觉...
这三个星期里，应该是吃得比较健康的几个星期了吧！

回来几天后我就去买了一包糙米...
现在多数都是煮糙米吃...
而且也会自己煲汤，炒一些小菜之类的...
很享受这种生活，自己煮自己吃...
虽然有时候还是会从外面打包...
但至少次数减少了...

回到家后，压力减少了...
整个人轻松多了...
不过心广体胖这句话说得特别对...
照镜子的时候都觉得自己臃肿了起来...

回来大概一个星期后才正式出远门...
破了以前的纪录...
然后又再等了另一个星期才跟阿繁见面...
又在这个星期二才跟耿倩见到面...
聊了几个小时...
好久好久没有很朋友这样的畅谈了...
很舒服...
还是和了解自己的朋友聊特别爽...
搬来想约开贤的，不过他真的是特别忙...
没办法啦！再等等看其他时间咯！

至于育才又跑去中国当交换生了...
这个学期应该都没什么机会见面了 ...
升翔也到英国去当一个星期的交换生...

有时候还真羡慕朋友们一个一个可以出国去见识见识...

最近都有发同一个奇怪的梦...
梦里所有人在一个城市，大家都在等着火车...
突然，又一只很大只的恐龙爪破墙而入...
好像在找些什么似的...
现场一片混乱，所有人都在逃命...
我也跟着朋友一起跑...
突然，我的朋友被那只恐龙爪抓去了...
恐龙爪那么大，那么在墙外的恐龙一定很大只...
看着朋友被捉走，我只是拼命的告诉自己：“我一定要活下来”。
整个梦境只是一昧的在怕,一直在陌生的城市里跑..

当我跑到我以为是安全的地方的时候
那只恐龙又在那边出现，可是我每次都很侥幸逃过一劫...
每次都是跑着跑着就梦醒了...
这个梦发了两次，一次是在砂拉越的时候...
而这次是在家的时候,
也不明白为什么同样的梦境会发两次...

说真的,我不明白为什么这一年特别会发梦...
记得爸爸去世之前，我都会一直发那种“未来”的梦
就是我梦见的事情，过后就发生了，
然后会觉得怎么这个场景跟梦里的这样像..

可是自从爸爸去世后，我发现我很少会发梦了...
直到最近，又一直发一些天马行空的梦...
这些是纯粹的梦吗？还是带有什么意义的梦呢？

寂寞男人的全译

最近在佳礼看见了一个好贴，楼主文采很好，所以像转载一些有意思的词句

‘男人嘛长的帅点，太抢手，不帅吧，拿不出手； 活泼点吧，说你太油，不出声吧，说你太闷； 穿西装吧，说你太严肃， 穿随便一点吧，说你乡吧佬；会挣钱吧，怕你包二奶； 不挣钱吧，又怕孩子断奶， 结婚吧，怕自己后悔；不结婚吧，怕她后悔， 要个孩子吧，怕出来没钱养，不要孩子吧，怕老了没人养。 这年头做女人难，做男人更难。’

“喜欢一个人，失去了，就像丢掉自己心爱的物品，虽然遗憾，但是不会痛　　爱一个人，失去了，就会留下一个伤口，永远都会隐隐的痛”

“女人当然也有寂寞，但与男人比起来，会逊色很多。男人的寂寞是一种海或天空般的深沉与博大。女人在寂寞时，可以哭，可以找丈夫以外的男人、女人诉说。而男 人----作为男人，会知道自己肩上的担子与责任，知道自己要拥有怎样的情怀与心魄，面对寂寞学会了克制自己，就是把牙咬得流血也绝不吭一声，把时间折磨 得体无完肤也不向妻儿父母吐露半点的愁苦和伤痛。寂寞的时候风也潇潇，雨也凄凄，这时必然要饮酒直到烂醉方休。知道男人的这种寂寞后你必须原谅他的这一 切，从而让男人的思想和灵魂有一块放松之地。"

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FYP submission

Arghhh.....
Sometimes, i really wish that i could be just like Bill Gate or Mark Zuckerberg...
Get away from all those exams, assignments, and my damn dull life ...Even though they weren't complete their degree....And yet their achievement is still remarkable and they are recognized as a successful people in the eye of the world.
Just hope that i can find something that meaningful as well to shed some light to my life....
The people who success in their life certainly posses a lot of passion to life...
But what is the thing that really stimulate them to have such passion?

Two days ago, i was loafing around at MPH while waiting for my friends...
Not really have the intention to read books or spend money...
Just flick through Robert Kiyosaki's Rich Dad Poor Dad...
If i was a couple year younger,
i would not be that interested in it ,
and probably it is too much vocab for me to understand the content....
But i was so keen to read it as i started the first page....
Unfortunately, I saw my friends started to leave ...
then i just put the book back on the book rack...
May be i will buy it and spend sometime to read it someday.

Today, it is the deadline for the submission of Final Year Project.
I suppose to finish it earlier than that but i failed to do so...
I had hand in the report on 5.03pm instead of 5pm.
I know it may not a big deal to others....
but it means so much to me....
I feel like i never learn the lesson from my mistake...
I had spoiled my final year presentation ....
Why i still can go easy on my report....
Or i just does not want to do it ....
i Guess it is just my laziness...

I really wanted to strike for a dean list or first class last time....
But does it mean anything to me?
Getting the deanlist does not make me happier...
I rather do something that can cheer my day than spending the whole day just for study...

一个人的生活…

一个人的生活…
有时候，会怀疑，是习惯吗？
总是一个人….
一个人吃饭，一个人听歌，一个人逛街，一个人出门….
是享受？还是一种反映出自己内心世界的借镜…
当生活又再围绕自我中心的时候…
我会回到从前吗?

上了大学，也没有什么深交的感觉….
没有所谓的朋友一起等巴士上课…
没有所谓的朋友一起约好一起吃饭…
尤其出席率开始不重要的时候…
与朋友见面更是少之又少了

每天见面的人，也只是表面嘻嘻哈哈….
感觉上就是缺乏互相鼓励的朋友….
也找不到能够指导自己的朋友….
更找不到真正愿意花时间和自己交流的朋友

大学里，每个人的时间显得特别宝贵
大家都争取时间做功课，念书…
身边的朋友总是当我是工具…
一个活生生的人肉字典…
多数找我的时间，都是问功课，问考试，问路….
最重要的就是问答案…

我也是平凡人…
有时候，我会怀疑，是友谊，还是利益？
这些日子，选择了逃避，整天上网，整天睡觉，整天玩游戏….
没有好好地面对自己的问题…
为身边的朋友指引了道路…
自己却不知该往哪里走….
有时候，我还真的觉得可笑…

小学，中学，我们都能够找到自己的好朋友…
到了大学，很羡慕那些也找到好朋友的人…
老实说，在大学听别人倾诉比较多…
时常以过来人的经验来开解人家…
可是却找不到过来人来听听我的诉说…
就连开着msn, 也没什么人会来聊，可悲！

现在有点得过且过的感觉…
其实可以做得很好的，却选择了只要做了就算…

总觉得生活里少了什么…
可是又说不出少了什么…
没有推动自己理由….
不懂自己坚持的理由….
不懂自己要什么….

Final Year Project

Just finish my final year project presentation yesterday. Everything was so good initially, but things went wrong when it came to the methodology. I had used the wrong method to test the variable. I feel so down and demotivated. How could i make such mistake in my final year project. I couldn't stop blaming myself on the way back to my hostel. AND this morning i had a very weird dream that i suddenly posses the power to communicate with people who pass away. Am i thinking too much till my mind deos not really get a rest. Arh~~~~i know that everyone need to go tru the failure in order to learn from the mistake, but i really can't stop thinking about it...it is so shameful to make such mistake in front of lecturer/supervisor. Hope that i can get tru it and make an improvement in another fianl year presentation next semester.